This weekend has reiterated what I have always known. We love pain. Not for any sick reason but that we at least know whats coming down the line. We know we are going to get hurt and we can brace for it. Fear actually has us believe that pain is good for us! I even do it myself. I revisit every time I have been rejected and I accept the pain of being alone. I was actually comfortable with the idea that I will never have kids or never have a wife.
It is just not me though. People running back and opening closed doors. "Hello person who abused me, I don't want to be alone so I will deal with your shit because I am familiar with it" or "Hello friends who are a bad influence, though you are not good for me, at least I have something." It can even choosing to be alone "Hello myself, I don't want to try and put my feelings in someone else's hands so I am ok with being alone." Fear is the biggest reason why we don't step out. Fear of losing something to be more precise. There is a movie coming out shortly called After Earth and Will Smith has a great line "Danger is real but Fear is a choice". I would say the same goes with Courage.
Courage is a choice. Yes most things won't go your way but that makes the things you succeed at that much more sweeter. I chose to tell her my true feelings for her. I chose to quit my job and take this new one. I chose to let go of my bad friends and get to know better people. Almost everything in life comes down to a choice. A yes or a no. A left or a right. A do or a don't. We choose our destiny. We are the masters of our ship we each call life. I urge you and myself to take the helm and battle on.
